Seduction

 Sunlight warms my face only in dreams of you

I know you'll wait for me
It's been too long
Beautiful eyes. beautiful lies to dull the pain
Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies
You're killing me
I would wait for years just to feel you again
I will die without you
Would you my love?
Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies pour from your mouth as
You scream his name
You're killing me

Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time
One last time
Do you remember me and our beautiful affair?
Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone!
Why have you turned your back on me?
One day you'll wake up and realize your mistake

Ice runs through my veins as I stand face to face with
The one who stole it all
Compassion is not an option

Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time
One last time
Do you remember me and our beautiful affair?
Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone!
Why have you turned your back on me?
One day you'll wake up
Realize your mistake!

In love we're one, inseparable, pathetic lust, thus we crumble
I saw your eyes, I wiped your tears, I waited for you

Who do you see with your eyes shut tight?
Regret will be your bride
Goodbye

Do you remember me and our beautiful affair?
Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone!
Why have you turned your back on me?
One day you'll wake and realize your mistake
Cries escape your sweet voice as I paint my own goodbye

New Year's Project

 your hands didn't move, well neither did mine

Last Hope

I don't even know myself at all, I thought I would be happy by now
The more I try to push it I realize gotta let go of control
Gotta let it happen, gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen, so let it happen

It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going
And when it's dark out, no one's around, it keeps glowing

Every night I try my best to dream tomorrow makes it better
Then I wake up to the cold reality and not a thing is changed
But it will happen, gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen, gotta let it happen

It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going
And when it's dark out, no one's around, it keeps glowing
It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going
And when it's dark out, no one's around, it keeps glowing

And the salt in my wounds isn't burning any more than it used to
It's not that I don't feel the pain, it's just I'm not afraid of hurting anymore
And the blood in these veins isn't pumping any less than it ever has
And that's the hope I have, the only thing I know that's keeping me alive
Alive

Gotta let it happen, gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen, gotta let it happen

Gotta let it happen, gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen, gotta let it happen

It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going
(So if I let go of control now, I can be strong)
And when it's dark out, no one's around, it keeps glowing

It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going
(So if I keep my eyes closed, with the blind hope)
And when it's dark out, no one's around, it keeps glowing

this is NOT a love song

The time is 2:22

and I hope your wish comes true 🙆🏻‍♂️

But you say I'll know before you do

and I hope you're right 😊

Why can we talk this way...

We always speak when you're so far away

and I'm sitting right here

It's 22:00 your time 😴 and it's 1 by mine 🤪

And I often wonder why you even care... 🤔

Do you ever wonder...

... ever wonder why we met here? 👀

The time is 2:22

and I hope my wish comes true 🥰

And I think I'll know just when you do

and I hope I do 🙆🏻‍♀️

Maybe this is just what I need

and maybe I'm wrong 🤷🏻‍♀️

Passing Time

What a waste of a day
Such a waste of time
I'd never admit to say
That the fault is mine

I'm never too far away
I'm never too close behind

These songs are my way
To keep you in my mind

Too close is too far away from you
You are the one and only sign
Why did it take so long
So long for me to come to?
All I needed was time

Too stubborn, too ignorant, too crazy about you
I didn't know that love was blind
To say this world was made for us
I never knew, I never tried

How can we make it through today
Without thinking about tomorrow?
One heart is enough to save
Just sit back, and watch it all go

How can we make it through today
Without thinking about tomorrow?
One heart is enough to save
Just sit back, and watch it all go

I'm never too far away
I'm never too close behind
These songs are my way
To keep you in my mind

Too close is too far away from you
You are the one and only sign
Why did it take so long
So long for me to come to?
All I needed was time

How can we make it through today
Without thinking about tomorrow?
One heart is enough to save
Just sit back, and watch it, all go

the saddest song and moment in my life

Only two more days until your birthday, yesterday was mine
You'll be turning five... I know what it's like growing up without your father in your life
So I pretend I'm doing all I can and hope someday you'll find it in your heart
To understand why I'm not around and forgive me for not being in your life
I remember waiting for you to come, remember waiting for you to call
Remember waiting there to find nothing at all
I remember waiting for you to come, remember waiting for you to call
Remember waiting there to find nothing at all
Maybe someday you'll really get to know me, not just from letters read to you
I pray I get the chance to make it up to you, we've got a lot of catching up to do
So I pretend I'm doing all I can and hope someday you'll find it in your heart
To understand why I'm not around and forgive me for not being in your life
I remember waiting for you to come, remember waiting for you to call
Remember waiting there to find nothing at all
I remember waiting for you to come, remember waiting for you to call
Remember waiting there to find nothing at all

unopened letter to a world

https://open.spotify.com/track/7CDfhC8NzdFO3fTDGWhExE?si=455a7511cf684020

If I died tomorrow would this song live on forever?

Here is my unopened letter to a world that never shall reply, never shall reply.

From this second story window I can hear the church bells calling out my name,
This table is set for one.
Even angels would be homesick in this forsaken town.

On random notes of parchment I'm scrawling my existence dressed in white.
This candle radiates throughout the night and it's never burning out, never burning out.

From this second story window I can hear the children down on Main Street,
They're singing their songs tonight.
In the shadows I will listen to their every movement.

Mr. Higginson, am I not good enough for the world?
Am I destined only to die the same way that I lived... in seclusion?

From high up on this mountain I can almost see your lonely windowsill.
They'll carry you off tonight.
There's a ghost in your old bedroom and a candle burning bright.

If I died tomorrow would this song live on forever?